Being true to your gut is not always an easy thing to do.  Today I did something that some may not agree about.   But I listened to my gut and followed it.  I have wanted to walk away for a long time.   There was this invisible string holding me.

My own fear of rejection.  Rejection though isn’t all that bad, it forces you to redirect yourself to something better.   I should have known better, I do now.  For too long I have been smiling when I want to cry and trying to do everything to make people like me.

Today that stopped.   I am certain I disappointed a friend, but I had to stop putting other’s happiness ahead of my own.  There is no way that I can change a certain group of people’s thoughts about me.  I cannot make them love me.   No matter what I will do they will never be appreciative of my efforts.  I can only love myself and follow my heart.

Some may not understand, others will whisper their displeasure behind my back.  Few know the truth and would rather listen to one side rather than both.  The problem is it is a case of taking sides.  Being with the “in” group and those that yield the power within the social system.

Being True to Self = Inner Peace

I realize today they are not my true friends if they do not understand that twisting myself to make myself fit it was destroying my inner peace.   I voted for inner peace.  To those that pushed me to this moment.   Thank you.   I will never again allow it to happen.   This is one lesson that I will not repeat.

I have found those that will understand, I have found my Spiritual Family and nothing is more beautiful than that.   I love and am happy with myself.   My best advice for you if you feel that you are being pressured into something that does not feel right; trust your gut and walk away.

The Universe does not like a void and fills it with just what you need…

Rev. Colleen Irwin
Reverend Colleen Irwin is a Spiritual being having a human experience as a Blogger, Wife, Mother, Mentor, Healer and Public Speaker living in Rochester New York. Colleen, a Natural Born Medium, teaches, lectures and serves Spirit when called upon. She remembers speaking with Spirit as a child and learning how to share this knowledge with others has been an adventure that she captured in her book “Discovering Your Stream”. Colleen has been mentored by Reverend Jack Rudy, and ordained as a Priest in the Order of Melchizedek by the Reverend Dan Chesboro through the Sanctuary of the Beloved. When she is not doing her Spiritual work she is a volunteer docent sharing Susan B. Anthony's history to visitors of the Susan B. Anthony House in Rochester. Her trust in Spirit gave her a new title – PREVIVOR. She now uses her platform to educate others about the BRCA genetic mutation and how one can take control of their health and well-being.
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