I often feel like Alice in Wonderland. Easy is not a term I would use to describe this time in my life. In fact it has been anything but that. I have struggled along the way to find the happier person I am today. My life is not perfect, but I am moving forward. In that I am grateful.
Lately I feel most like Alice in this world. This round of Mercury in Retrograde has had a significant impact on me. I have been reflecting on much and all that has happened over the past few years. Looking back I am amazed at how far I things have changed.
“Have I gone mad? I’m afraid so, you’re entirely BONKERS. But I’ll tell you a secret… All the best people are.”
This life I have is not what I had envisioned years ago. I know it is not the life my parents dreamed for me. There are others around me who are more successful, they have more things, they have busy lives. From what I see they are happy. But are they?
Happiness is a State of Mind
I have to constantly remind myself that I cannot measure my own happiness against that of others. Defining who I am has become a priority, understanding my own likes and building a life that will make me happy. Everyone’s “perfect” life on social media it is what they want others to see. We don’t see all the negative stuff, their doubts and anxiety.
The last few months I have been working a lot on the Spiritual side of me, and that is where I am. Working with my gifts and sharing with others. I can’t remember a time in my life that I was more at peace and calm. Above all, what I am doing has to be enough. Things are changing each day as I take care of me. The things I struggle with are big to me. Giving myself the grace to grow is all I can do right now.
Reverend Colleen Irwin is a Wife, Healer, Psychic Medium, Mentor, Author, and Public Speaker from Rochester, New York, with over 30 years of business experience, including her work as a real estate broker. Colleen’s background in training REALTORS honed her skills in conflict resolution, marketing strategies, and analytical as well as presentation skills, which she now applies to her spiritual education and coaching. Colleen teaches, lectures, and serves Spirit, sharing her lifelong connection with the spiritual world, as captured in her book 'Discovering Your Stream.' She has studied with renowned mediums John White and Lisa Williams and was mentored by Reverend Jack Rudy. Ordained in the Order of Melchizedek by Reverend Dan Chesboro, Colleen is also a PREVIVOR who educates others about the BRCA genetic mutation and taking control of their health. Her mission is to empower women through life’s significant changes—whether it be a career shift, parental care giving, health crises, relationship transformations, or spiritual awakenings. Through spiritual education, inspirational talks, and coaching, Colleen offers guidance and hope, helping women embrace their new purpose.
