I run the danger of criticism for writing my thoughts down and then publishing them here on my blog. today I want to discuss the dynamics of depression. So many mistakes have been made in the course of who I have become. There is a real struggle with some of the relationships I have and I can’t quiet explain it but there are a few more people that have drifted from my life.
I am not quiet sure what happened along the way. Some see what I do as a Medium a problem. Others who have dealt with my personal struggles with depression and found it too much to be around have faded away. I have struggled a lot over the past few years. Some are uncomfortable with the changes I have made and the growth I have achieved – it makes them uncomfortable with their own lives.
Yet there are those that have watched me struggle and each day encouraged and helped me through the emotional struggles I have had. I am not alone in the fighting off of depression. I have several friends that suffer and find it absolutely amazing to get through a day. There are no mistakes, wee are friends because we understand the struggle and love each other through it. Sometimes at a distance.
Dynamics of Depression isn’t always bad
Why write about my struggles? I am not the only one who shares. We realize that putting it out there we may never know who we will impact and give some hope to. That there is a responsibility to break down the barriers built by those that don’t want life made easier by connection. We all connect people (good and bad) and wouldn’t it be wonderful by doing so we make each other’s lives just a little bit easier? If one person reads what I write here and it gives them the courage to step out of their comfort zone and break the cycle then my job is done. I help more than one person even better.
If you need distance from things that bring you anxiety do not feel guilty about it. Find a support group or talk with a friend that does understand. Perhaps reach outside your normal circle of friends and make a new friend. Then again it may be time to reconnect with someone that you have lost contact with. It is all in your control. Just begin. You just need a little courage to change and faith that it will work out in the end.
2 thoughts on “The dynamics of depression and its affect on relationships…”
I totally empathize with you I myself suffer from the same type of depression and have damaged many relationships some that I was not able to fix unfortunately
I still struggle with this so much guilt for so many mistakes that I’ve made wish I can go back and do things different I feel like I’m being punished so it puts me into it for the depression it’s a constant struggle I give you a lot of credit for putting it out there!
Carol — thank you. It is something to work on and treasure those that stick around through the worst of it….
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