The other day, I was a mess. The changes in my world are a little overwhelming right now. George just looked at me and said it is going to be okay which resulted in my uncontrollably crying. We had just closed on our first home together, I accepted a position as the President of the Reformed Spiritualist Church (more to come about that soon!), I was preparing for my test tour at the Susan B. Anthony House and our son started a job a half hour away working 3:30pm to midnight (which means we need to drive him to and from work each day).
This after moving to a new city in January, getting married in June and trying to create a new normal after leaving my career in Real Estate of 15 years full time and another 8 doing it part-time. George had surgery in May which changed our plans for me working and then we were house hunting and now we are settling in to our home. We are in the process of slowly moving over to the house which just days before George was the one freaking out about what needs to happen and in what order. Another situation had me upset and I just didn’t know if I was coming or going.
Allowing Fear to Take Hold
My life is really awesome. I have a great family life at home — something that has been missing in my life for a very long time. The Development Circle is going strong with a lot of people having amazing results in their mediumship. There is so much to be grateful for and yet I found myself overwhelmed. I was allowing fear to creep its way into my life because I haven’t been writing.
This is where I should know better, yet there it was — FEAR. I think that was the lesson in this moment of anxiety I happened upon to. That if you don’t watch out, fear can show up and overtake you in a flash.
The changes in my world are all really good and we planned them accordingly. Yet it the process of making all these changes, I forgot that.
I was wistful for the past, I just wanted to be at the finish point. The reality is that it is going to take several months before we are settled completely in our new home. I had wanted all this and now it is with my grasp. I realized that for the better part of the last 15 years I have been a nomad in places that were not mine. Our home is ours — but as George reminds me it is my safe place. The finish line it is so close and I just need patience until we are settled.
How to get out of FEAR
How did I get out of this funk? I went back to my gratitude journal. You know that wonderful exercise where you say you are grateful for three things each and every day. What should you do when you are experiencing great anxiety over the changes in your world? Take time and start writing about the things you are grateful for. Begin to focus on all that good that is happening in your life. I bet it will help you like it has assisted me in dealing with all the changes in my world.