The journey I take when I put talks together is interesting. Sometimes it is easy, other times I am at a complete loss. Then there are the times that Spirit has me rewriting until the morning of a talk. I arrive at the podium and what comes out of my mouth looks nothing like what I planned. The last time I spoke in Erie, it was about surviving my Spiritual Awakening. It came together easily and it was beautiful.
This talk has been a struggle since I started. This morning I started a lecture. It was awesome I spent the whole day with it. Then as I was reviewing it, that voice deep inside me said not to use it. So here it is 9pm the night before and I have absolutely no clue what I am going to talk about.
Over the last three weeks I sat and thought about it a lot what I may talk about this time. I even asked Spirit to guide me. Nothing.
I sat and sat and thought about it. Looking for needed inspiration. I took a ride to NYC for business surely almost 7 hours alone in the car each way would inspire me. Nope! The few days in the middle of the thriving metropolis and nothing.
What could I possibly say that would teach, entertain and make you not regret coming here me speak? You see it wasn’t all that long ago that I didn’t have the confidence to be a healer let alone be a Medium. Speaking in public isn’t a problem for me, in business, technology topics or real estate I can do with one hand tied behind my back.
I figured if I wrote down why I was struggling that perhaps a topic would grab me. Surly I could write about Twitter and how it has affected my development. Leadership in the Spiritual community is ripe with opportunity. Patience. I seriously regret that I have selected it as one of my three words.
Earlier this week I sat and watch several of the speakers at the Summer program at Lily Dale. The best of them was John White. I saw he had a short agenda. As I watched him, he would drop into trance and let Spirit take him where he needed to go.
I am starting to believe that is what I need to do here. Let go. Let Spirit have the control and trust that tomorrow morning it will just be there for me. After all what I am talking about is mean to uplift and inspire those that are there.