I am facing yet another surgery this month in my BRCA journey. I am so tired of it. The last thing I want is yet another surgery. Yet that is where I am at. This time it is revision surgery. Take care of some of the bumps and imperfections away from my body after 4 surgeries. I know for sure that this is the right thing to do for me. The last couple of weeks, I was wavering if all this preventative surgeries were really worth it. I have spent some time wallowing in self-pity. Hating my body, and how it looks. The infections and complications along the way. Then there was this heartbreaking post on Monday about the death of Kelly Preston as a result of breast cancer.
Thank you Kelly Preston
Another Surgery I can handle
I look into her eyes and hear “you are so lucky you do not have to go through this pain, you did the right thing.” As a psychic medium I know that was my confirmation that I did the right thing. I can get through this like I did for the hysterectomy, double mastectomy, reconstruction and hernia. A worldwide pandemic is not going to stop me. I am at the finish line with this. This is the fixing the things that make me hate looking at my body in a mirror. My family will not have to endure such heartache. I have broken the chain that my mother, grandmother and great grandmother endured. I fought breast cancer on my terms.
