Finding Direction in a Chaotic Life

My life for the past couple of years has been one chaotic mess.   I have been paralyzed for the better part of a year because I have been stuck.   Not quiet sure what to do first and a little upset at myself for letting it get out of control.   The last few weeks I have come to understand it all had to happen this way and I have accepted that I have done a pretty good job under these circumstances.    I have forgiven myself and let go of the notion that I am not doing enough.  Not all of this has been bad, I moved to a new city, got married and retired from Real Estate.

One of my words for 2020 is MOVEMENT.   This can be applied in so many aspects of my life:

  • Physically after almost a year of surgeries and recoveries
  • Housework that has been put on hold
  • Emotionally after all the upheaval in my life, both good and bad
  • Writing — I have been struggling with so much to write that I don’t
  • Spiritually as I maneuver the ego of not only myself but that of others

The moment I started to focus on this word some magic started to happen.   I am working towards some sort of physical movement in my daily activities.   I am back wearing my Fitbit keeping me moving.   I started regaining my office which was the dumping ground for everything that I could not deal with during my recovery.   We kept the rest of the house in pretty good order, my office not even close.   Today it is neat and orderly with just a few things that need to be taken care of.

This brings me to my second word RELEASE.   I have been tossing things out, preparing others for our community garage sale in May and sending things that no longer serve me to those that can use.   I have been releasing the need to control everything and everyone around me.   I am releasing old bad habits that have gotten me into trouble more often than I want to admit.

So in all this chaos I am finding peace and ease and my third word — VOICE where I now can write again where I struggled for so long.   I am learning to speak my truth and still be kind.   Boundaries have been built with people that push me in a direction I do not want to go.   These steps are all good, I am moving forward and soon this chaos will be calm order and peace.   It really is all about that first step when you are stuck.   It is amazing how much clearer things become.

Reverend Colleen Irwin is a Spiritual being having a human experience as a Blogger, Wife, Mother, Mentor, Healer and Public Speaker living in Rochester New York. Colleen, a Natural Born Medium, teaches, lectures and serves Spirit when called upon. She remembers speaking with Spirit as a child and learning how to share this knowledge with others has been an adventure that she captured in her book “Discovering Your Stream”. Colleen has been mentored by Reverend Jack Rudy, and ordained as a Priest in the Order of Melchizedek by the Reverend Dan Chesboro through the Sanctuary of the Beloved. When she is not doing her Spiritual work she is a volunteer docent sharing Susan B. Anthony's history to visitors of the Susan B. Anthony House in Rochester. Her trust in Spirit gave her a new title – PREVIVOR. She now uses her platform to educate others about the BRCA genetic mutation and how one can take control of their health and well-being.

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