Alter course…

Sometimes we must alter course in our lives. Things happen to us or for us.   It is our choice on which one that is, change is inevitable.   It is 4 in the morning and I have had a very busy and intense few days.   Our home is quiet and even the cat is snoring.   It is my time to sit and gather my thoughts before we start another busy day.

So I have spent a lot of time thinking about things happening to me and how I can make things happen for me.   Too often I have been paralyzed by fear.    The choices in front of me too overwhelming, the risks too great and the pressure to be perfect.   I am after all a triple Capricorn.   But — I am not alone.  You too may relate to this struggle.

This is something we all fight and struggle with.   Some of us are better at it, we learn to become the eye of the storm.   In that we can see the options clearly and alter course as we go.  There are times that we need to make a decision and figure things out later.   Otherwise a decision will be made for us and we have to alter.

I have learned by altering the course we have options.   It is when we stop, demand that nothing changes and hope that everything will be okay — that it is not.   Sometimes we have to make radical changes in our lives to achieve the things we desire.   Nowhere is it promised that our journey is going to be a straight line.   This at times means letting go of a job, a belief, a person or a habit in order to move forward.   If we don’t do it ourselves — the Universe finds a way for us to do it.   We are after all here to grow and learn.

I see it in my own life with Real Estate.   I love it, and it has been my identity for close to 20 years.   It hasn’t served me very well over the last few years.   Yet I have held on to that belief in who I was for years.   I did not see myself as anything else.   Others saw it, but it wasn’t until I really connected with Spirit and I started to listen that I understood my course was wrong.   I am discovering who I am Spiritually and the the Real Estate life did not fit with me at this time.     Suddenly the hours I poured into that was being replaced by meditation, writing a book and falling in love with myself.  I loved myself enough to say time to alter the course.   Not everyone agrees and that is perfectly fine with me.

Alter Course – The positive

This is where the magic happened for me.  My speaking engagements increased, my mediumship  improved greatly, I had peace and the relationships around me started to improve.   I am no longer lonely — I am never in a position of being desperate for connection.    The connection I thought was in my identity and it really was in who I was Spiritually.   My spiritual connection is guiding me and assisting me in becoming the best person I can be.

In that process of connecting to my spirit, I needed to alter course.   Let go of people, a career, beliefs, a need for approval, and a lot of self loathing in the process.   Today I am more connected with life and as a result it is happening for me not to me.   All because I took a leap of faith and understood that I needed to be the captain of my ship.   That it was okay, and in fact encouraged to change course as I saw fit.  Not as others saw it, but how I saw it.   Because the truth is, either I am building my dream or helping someone else build theirs at expense of my own.

If you too are struggling with what next to do, remember that your hopes and dreams are just as important as anyone else’s.   You just have to believe in them and make it so.